I had an unconsummated and ideal love with someone both proximate yet fascinatingly unknowable, I had been initiated into the secret cant of cash-register operators and given a uniform, and I was getting free cheeseburgers nearly every time I turned around.
You must be like a chimpanzee in the zoo, who pretends to like a new chimpanzee and offers it fruit when the other chimpanzees are watching. Only when the other chimpanzees are looking at something else can you step on the fruit, spoiling it for everyone.
